in my head at least.
today I am going to see Auktyon among other things. Possibly do a little street shooting. Going to be a busy day.
I understood today that it is stupid to expect recognition of my photographic vision by all,when only a small group of people bears me as a person.That is a relief.I just need someone to remind that to me every time I start to get whiny.
The Bahai Gardens in Haifa are so groomed that the word roccoco comes to mind. They seem so unnatural it is a bit frightening.
Kodak announced a new version of tmax 400.Nice.
Life is strange. Often I feel happy in the morning and sad in the evening. I have nothing to complain about but yet I am not happy. I feel I dont know where I am heading. I think one of the things that drive me is photography – but where am I going with it? An exhibition or a book would attract no one,I will never make money of it in a way I would enjoy it and yet I don’t see myself not taking pictures.
That what plays in my head:
I don’t believe in an interventionist God
But I know, darling, that you do
But if I did I would kneel down and ask Him
Not to intervene when it came to you
Not to touch a hair on your head
To leave you as you are
And if He felt He had to direct you
Then direct you into my arms
I spent the weekend in the best way humanly possible.
I still didnt get the exam results and I am very nervous.I would hate to retake the test,and if I fail the retake,I will have to retake the whole course.
My gossen seems to stop responding below a certain EV,which is sad. I guess I am in the market for a “new” budget light meter.
I will go to Beer Sheba for a couple of days to study without temptations.
I understood a couple of things are very wierd when you try to explain them but very fun to do when you stop giving a fuck.
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The Vardi Kahana exhibit in Tel Aviv art museum is good if not excellent.
I am now standing at a crossroads in my life. From one side – I need to do some academiccareer choices,from the other – I am young and want to enjoy life.
One comes at the expense of the other. It has become clear to me that the reasons for which I have chosen my proffessional choices are no longer valid – they never were – they were dictated by the place and the time much more then by logic or my heart desires.
I am not sorry for most of them – but it does make me wonder how reasonable my priorities are.
It is a damn shame. I listened to his arias from Turandot last night.
I shot several films lately,developed several,scanned some and worked on some more.
I have something like 100 pics to post – street and portrait.
I possibly found a summicron to replace my summaron.
My internet provider decided he hates me. Please be patient.
I love living in the center.Theres always something to do – as long as you have the energy. I met some people old and new and enjoyed it immensly.Especially a specific new person.
I hate the goggles on my summaron – anyone wants to buy ittrade it for a summicron 50/2?
It is still under warranty from Sherry Krauter.
I love Tel Aviv. A bartender in a bar recognized me and poured me a free drink.
Have tons of new pictures but no internet access at home,so sorry.